Sunday, June 13, 2010


that's all i am
a veil of illusion
and falling back down to the Earth

what ever i was
is gone

i am learning to let it be
no need for nostalgia
or stories and labels

there is no character
no roles and rules
only this fleeting moment
with the dust of yesterday
i breath it in
i breath it out
and wether it was real or not
is in the eye of the beholder

i stroll down memory lane
but nothing stays the same
how my life has changed
chapters and pages turn
another town
another home
another mirror

yet what was i to them?
do i punish myself forever
for my sins
for my selfish need to implode
and dissolve
like dust
in the air
in my eyes
there are no tears
yet i feel the burn
of yesterdays dust
blurring my vision

it's all i have
i am running on fumes
running free
yet powerless
and afraid
of what is within

as i walk
i kick up the dust
and call out the ghosts
of all those i cannot seem to let go of
with each yearning thought
of lost love
of the affection i never received
of the boy i never was

just empty thoughts
like dust in my throat
a hint of what might have been
who i might be

if i were not alone
empty handed
in a cloud of dust...